It's been away for a while now ,

CHANGE OF BLOG AND URL

2009-05-20T21:49:00.003+08:00

EVERYONE PLEASE NOTE!
I'VE CHANGED MY EMAIL AND BLOG URL ALREADY!
PLEASE ADD MY EMAIL AND RELINK ME! THANK YOU!

Blog:
http://www.orsicaa.blogspot.com

Email:
orsicaa@live.com

THANK YOU MANYMANY!

2009-04-25T21:42:00.002+08:00

Orignal Dance Moves.

Super Hilarious Dance Moves.

It's funny. Watch the first one,
then the second one.

& Ps, there's someone who really loves you.
It's just that you don't know .
You didn't take a careful thought to see/find out who he is.

Who would love you so long and whole-heartedly, like me?

2009-04-25T13:28:00.002+08:00

HELLOOOOOOOO!
EH EH EH, TRY THIS LOVE CALCULATOR QUIZ. I VERY BORED. THEN JIU WENT ONLINE AND SEE TILL THIS. JIU GO DO. JUST GO DO IT ALSO LAHS. HAHA. I KNOW IT'S CHILDISH, BUT PLAYPLAY ONLY LAHS. I ALSO WENT TO DO FOR FUN ONLY (: DON'T WORRY, IT'S NOT A VIRUS OR A SPAM. HAHA. ALSO NO HARM MAHS. IT TELLS YOU WHO MIGHT CRUSH ON YOU. COMEON, GIVE IT A TRY. MIGHT MAKE YOU HAPPY FOR A WHILE!;D VERY FUN DE SIAH. (: & PLEASE DON'T SAY ANYTHING OUT AFTER YOU DO UHS. THANKKS! GO DO, SUPER FUN. DON'T WORRY, NO VIRUSES OR SPAMS.
http://www.lovecalculator.be/quiz/en/4742789/free

2009-04-15T20:34:00.003+08:00

'N' comes before 'O'.

In whatever situation,

The letter 'N' always comes before the 'O'.

In the examinations,

'N' levels come before 'O' levels.

In the alphabets,

'N' comes before 'O'.

& In the word 'No',
'N' comes before the 'O'

I don't know why i said this. Perhaps a 'N' or a 'O' matters. Perhaps it does matters to me. Idk, i'm confused. Training yesterday, so much things happened. Don't wanna go so much into it. But just three words. 'BAD AND TERRIBLE'. Shall not go into today again. 'Today might be bad, but tomorrow will be a better day'. I hope. & see this person's blog, i went studying with her. & i've been a very good boy ! ;D

http://www.quartereight.blogspot.com/

Must praise me for being a goodboy!:x

That's all. Bye.

I don't know who to choose.

You, you, or you.

It's really, confusing ):

2009-04-03T23:11:00.002+08:00

All the things that i have gone through,

let's put them all aside, & start anew.

The way you danced my heart away, so beautifully.

All my passed actions/sins, please let them be washed away.

& lets all start everything afresh.

Problems & Troubles,

It's been washed away by the wave currents.

Hopefully, It shall never come back.

2009-03-23T19:51:00.002+08:00

HI!!!!!!!!!!!
Oscar is a bad boy. He bully one girl, call My.
I hate him! Now, he's feeling very guilty.
HAHAHA. :D

2009-03-01T18:28:00.002+08:00

I can't seemed to bring myself up for tomorrow.

~~happy birthday to me~~

~~happy birthday to me,~~

~~happy birthday to oscar,~~

~~happy birthday to me.~~

I need something or someone to talk me out of this.

Death is all i can think about now, again.

2009-03-01T02:13:00.002+08:00

~~Happy~~ Birthday to Me.
Happy Birthday to Mojin.

Less than 22 hours more to our birthday. Goodbye.

2009-02-19T22:10:00.009+08:00

Read with the following songs,
Yiruma - River Flows In You.
Yiruma - Moon Light.
Yiruma - Kiss The Rain.

I need you, I need you, I need you,
I need you, I need you, I need you,
I need you, I need you, I need you,
I need you, I need you, I need you,
I need you, I need you, I need you,

I need you, I need you, I need you,

I need you, I need you, I need you,

I need you, I need you, I need you.

When all my hopes have been pinned up high, & a single phrase from you, can just break everything into pieces. It just shatters my heart into pieces, pieces which i can't mend it back. I don't know how to open up to you, i don't know how to face you. I'll have to put up with another front, to let you & everyone elses feels, I'm okay, I'm alright. I've been holding onto this front for a period of time, & all i know is, I'm tired. I really am. Everything that i do, just reminds me of you. Regardless of whatever i do, it just relates back to you. I want you back by my side so much, too much that no one could ever imagined. Neither could you understand why will i want you back so much. You don't see yourself the way i do. I've learnt to cherish you for every way that i could. & I've also learnt one thing, i could only admire you from afar. There's a limit to every distance that i travel, & that distance ends right here. I'll be waiting for you, I still will be. Until maybe one day, when I'm really sick & tired, I'll not be around anymore. Take care of yourself well. Perhaps by that time, it'll be what I'll call, 'It's all too late to turn back.' Life is only a one-way street, when it's all over, it's all too late to turn back. Like you said, life doesn't always have second-chances. 11 days from now, it'll all not be the same as to how that day was 365 days ago. It will all not be the same, anymore. This period without you by my side, had really been hard. I've specially tried to change for you. & i really hope that you could see the changes. I don't want to judge the changed by myself. I'll let you judge it. I promise to love you whole-heartedly. Darling, this time will be different. I assure you, it will be. For all this time that I've been waiting, I've come to this point to know how important this relationship and you means to me. I've lost it once, i really don't want to lose you again. I'm not a good lover, but I'll change for you. I really need this chance to prove it once again. Honey, i really want to be with you, again.

P.S: Darling, i still love you.
Hold my hand, we'll be there together.

2009-01-30T19:29:00.003+08:00

Hello Hello Hello Hello ! (:

Haha, Firstly, i wanna post about this girl uhs,
she super BIRDDD man.
People not cute, she keep saying the person cute.
She's seriously very the birdd! :x
Haha. Day & Night, KEEP SAYING THAT I'M CUTEEEE! :x

HAHAHA, I suspect something's wrong in her mind! ;D

I know you all must be wondering who she is.
For more information, go to this website.
http://www.vintagelov-e.blogspot.com/

Haha, spam her like crazy, it's okay :x
Haha, i'm just kidding lahs. haha.

Don't spam her. Whack her! :x

& that time the quiz on her blog,
we were playing.
then due to a result that she keeps saying that i'm sweet.
she wanted to see how sweet i was, or vice versa.
I can't remember.
Haha, So about out of 45 questions.
I scored 40.5/45.
Haha. Meaning, i don't know how to explain.
haha, just go to her blog and read about it.

She's a super BIG fan of mine.

Haha.
Okayokay! ;D

BYEBYEEEE!

Hold on, Let me tell you a very touching story.
Really VERY TOUCHING. It's a true real life story! ;D

ONE DAY, JESLYN *TOUCHED* ME. AS IN SHE *TOUCH* ME. AS IN LIKE A MOVEMENT. & THEN NOW I'M SO (TOUCHED) BY HER! :x HAHAHA. WHAT A TOUCHING STORY RIGHTT ?! (:

2009-01-25T11:45:00.004+08:00

I cried, for you.

I literally teared after i finish reading what you replied. I didn't expect much, all i need is for you to be happy. You don't have to come back to me. All i need is that smile on your face. I tried so much to stop contacting with you. But i can't, we're in the same school. You didn't even tell me how you were or how you felt, how would i know it when you needed me so much. I didn't lie to you, i swear i didn't. If i really did, i wouldn't still be loving you right now. If you hadn't realised, you left me for someone else. It wasn't me that left you, perhaps i really did. I was self-centered. I'm selfish, i didn't care about your feelings. I wasn't there when you needed me, i was a failure of love. I'm whatever you feel i am. When will i have a chance to say my piece? I've tried to talk to you so many times in the past, but you never hear what i say. You make it sound so easy, then all the blame gets pushed to me. I do think of you day and night, especially when i go to places we've gone before. & stupid things that I've done in front of you. I think about everything of you, & everything that have to do with you. Whether or not you've eaten or bathe, you've brushed your teeth or watch your television programmes. You aren't me, how would you know if i think about you at all? Seriously, you don't know. Even my closest friends don't even know, how would you know how i feel or think ? You've changed for me, but it's not like i didn't. I've tried my best. But i told you, i need time. But the next second, we were gone, & almost a week after, you're with another guy. It wasn't my fault, I'm not pushing the blame to you. In a relationship, both are at fault. & it always takes two hands to clap. Why do you make it sound like everything is my fault? You stayed away from others? Was it? If you really had stayed away, this wouldn't have happened. So you must be feeling or thinking that it must have been a complete waste of 2 months together with me? Everything we do, is just for the sake of each other or one another. Is this how you feel? I didn't lie to you, I told you that i love you, i swear i didn't lie. I'll swear my life on this. I won't cross the sea nor ocean for you, because i know it's not impossible for anyone to do it. I'll do what's impossible. I'll not exaggerate on my words. I swear i meant what i said. I even whispered to your ears, telling you how much i wanted to you stay. But it's not your fault for this that happened. It's mine, it had always been. I'm sorry.

You don't have to come back by my side,
As long as you're happy,
With that smile planted onto your face.
I'm contented.
I don't expect anything much,
I seriously don't.
It's just that smile,
Can you do that, for me? );

Tell, Speak to & Teach me,

How did you get over someone so quickly ?

Everything that i do, just reminds me of you.

How did you passed by this stage,

Of getting over someone so easily?

I can't & don't know how to.
Teach me how to, will you? );

2009-01-21T22:00:00.001+08:00

It's for you.

Sorry for everything i made you go through. Thinking about how we used to be. It just harms and hurt me so much. I can't stop crying for you. Am i just pursuing a blinded love? WIth my eyes all shut tight, just so tight. All i see is just plain darkness. While my heart slowly tears open, to see what is all left inside me. A single drop of tears and blood dripped for you, it doesn't matters. Because i'm not the one you used to love anymore. There's so much that i have to ask you. i just need to. When i read your daily escapes, i just hope that every 'you' that you wrote, is just referring to me. But it's not possible. I know it's not possible anymore. It'll no longer be. & now i'm still clinging on with a single hope, hoping we could still turn out so well. & now i know, i'm such a fool, to have let go of you. I thought that either you or me would have gotten so much better without each other. Until i've lost you, i've learnt to cherish. All these time, i had been lying to myself. I don't know why must i do this to myself. Doing something to hurt both you and me. But you moved on, without me painted onto your picture. I don't know how you did that, can you teach me too? I really want to move on, like the way you did. I'm just a ordinary friend to you now. & i guess this thought of me will never change in you. I really really have so much that i have to ask and tell you. For the past one hour, i can't stop crying in front of the com. If you really get a chance to read this, could you just tell me the answers to this questions? I really need and want to know. Please.

1)Have you gotten over me?

2)Do you still think of me in the night?

3)Do you have flashbacks of me at times?

4)Are you happy with your life now?

5)If there's a chance, can we get back to how we were?

P.S: I still love you, like i did yesterday.

2009-01-21T20:03:00.003+08:00

Mood: Clashedd

The moment when our hands clashed.

School was still okay today. Had Physical-Education in the first period. PE lessons was still alright despite yesterday's training. After that was Mother-tongue. Sorry, i don't wish to go on anymore. I can't bring myself to post. Goodbye.

- So close, yet so far away.there's always a cause to everything.that cause,doesn't always have to be because of one,i miss you, i really do.a drop of tears for you, to tell you,how pain it is without you by my side.from what i see, you're having such a wonderful life. without me in your life,i guess you've gotten over me,there's time when i just wanna tell you, baby, ireallydomissyou.but i can't bring myself to say it.Because i don't want to get rejected, by you.i don't care about the others.you're all that concerns me. It's been so long,You won't be back isn't it?You've left, & gone forever.You're not returning, forever.

New Year Resolutionnnn ! :D

2009-01-03T20:44:00.009+08:00

It's been kinda long since i onlined.

& I'm here to post.

& I've got something to sayy ! :x

IT'S 58 MORE DAYS TO MY BIRTH

-DAYY!

Haha, isn't that great ? But I'm just not any excited at all. This year wouldn't be the same as the previous. Sighs, nevermind. Let's not talk about things that are sad. Let's talk about things that i wantt ! :x * Hinthintt! :x haha. Yuinping & i went popular a few days ago. & saw quite a few books that kinda interests me :x Haha. I suddenly wish/wants to read books. & that's a miracleee! :x & here it goesssss.

Author : Richard Templar -The Rules Of Love.
Author : David Southwell - 1001 Ridiculous Ways To Die.
Author : W.Doyle gentry, PhD - Happiness For Dummies.
Author : Dav Pilky - The Tra-la-laa-mendous Captain Underpants.
Author : Teo Aik Cher - Why Procrastinate?

Gosh, i sure want this bookkkks! :x Buy them for me pleaseeeee. (: Haha. Especially the first and second oneee! :x Haha! :x I only took a picture of one book only. Cause this really really interests me ! (: It's like so coolzxzx. SOMEONE BUY FOR ME LAHHHHHSZXZX. GIVE IT TO ME BEFORE MY BIRTHDAY ALSO CAN. YOU GIVE ME AN OF THE BOOKS LISTED, I'LL LOVE YOU MUCHMUCH MORE MANNN! : haha. Isn't the book cover just so cuteee ?! :x & don't buy the wrong boooookkks ! :x OHMYGOD , i'm starting to feel excited about my birthdayy. Haha.

& I've got something to sayyy! I WANNA TURN OVER A NEW LEAFF ! & THAT'S MY NEW YEAR'S RESOLUTIONNNN ! :D

I wanna have a positive attitude towards studying and school . Haha, Isn't that just great . & I'm gonna change all that i cannnn ! :D Change for the sake of everything. especially for things that concerns meeee ! :D & that's youuuuu! :x Man, idk why i'm so high. It's just a few books. haha. Alright , i lazy to post already . & it's my O's levels this year. Mst buck up already . & oh yah, I need tuiton, Best is private de. Or not jiu shi group but tops 3-4 person in a group. Yeap, that's right. I'm damn weak in Poa, Combined Science(Chemistry & Physics) Combined Humanities(Social Studies & Geography Elective), Elementary Maths & a few others that i can't remember de lahs. I gotta learn everything from the scratch. From the sec3 foundations. I really really need a tutor/tuitions mann); Someone help me pleaseeee. Thanks.

I'm a fighter, of love.

2008-12-25T00:51:00.005+08:00

Hey,
i passed by your blog. & started reading all our passed memories. & i kinda realised that i've never been really supportive of you. I didn't realised you were feeling so hurt, upset& shattered. & all the promised that i used to made. Was broken uhs? Iloveyou, it's only 3 simple words. Why can i say it, but not prove it really out by actions? To find out, that it's just so sad, you once used to feel, noone could be compared to me. Where i didn't know how to hold you tight with me. & then end up, losing it all. That was the period of time, where i knew how important you were to me. But i couldn't get you back. Because you were forever, gone from me.

"You'll be the one i love, the one and only one.And this fact shall never change. "

In fact, it have never changed. This word still exists. It really does.

Imissyou,dearly);

You, iloveyou

2008-12-19T18:58:00.006+08:00

Tell me how to go on without you.

Hey,

i don't know where or how to start. I just know, there's too much for me to handle. I alone can't take this. Anyone reading my post, if yknow how, tell me how can you? ); teach me how the hell am i suppose to smile without the existense of so much. It's been tough. Friends, i'm sorry. Family, i'm sorry. You, i'm terribly sorry.

You.

You're the reason why i believe in 'everlasting'. You gave the courage for me to move on. You make me smile. You gave me almost everything that i needed/wanted. Thanks. But now, both of you are getting back together well already. I don't wish to interfere, but i really don't want him to treat you that way. You get what i meant? I don't want you to be unhappy. You have no idea how painful it is to even hear the way he treats you. You deserve so much better. You know that yourself. There's time to be soft-hearted and there is time not to be. I'm not asking you to do anything or leave him. I'll respect whatever your decision will be. Because, the reason is simple, iloveyou.

P.S : I Love You. ):

2008-11-22T21:41:00.002+08:00

Eh Heh ,
I just reborn-ed my hair. Haha . i kinda like it actually :x haha . I'm like super tired. out of 7 days a week . i'm working almost 6 days . then sunday got music . what the hell . It's wearing me off . ZXZX . I NEED SOMEONE. ): & IT'S YOU ! ):

& if you reads this ,
tell me you love me ,
if you love me too .

2008-11-03T22:10:00.000+08:00

~~& i realised ,~~
~~the person you loved , no longer is me anymore .~~

2008-11-03T17:47:00.002+08:00

Damn, I met with an accident. Not really an accident , but it's gotta do with my cousin's bike & me.

I was riding my cousin's bike home to get my clothes , Then i get already , my brother asked me to fetch him to yewtee mrt station. After i fetch him , then he alighted , then i rode off. I was cycling very fast . then after that , i jumped off the ramp with the bike , then before i reached the ground , the tyre some sort of came out . Then when i landed , the front tyre broke , then the thing connected to the tyre broke also , then when i reach the ground , i jitao flew front , then my palm and kneww hit the ground , then cause raining , so like frictionless, then my whole body slided against the ground . the ground is the road floor lohs . Then my shin , knee , ankle , palm bleeding . At that minute , alot of people was like looking at me lohs . Then they didn't help . Still at there talk . say what 'aiyoh , confirm pain de.' or not is 'want go to help anot?' or not is others lohs . then at there point here . then got one lady , she came to help me , then gave me a tissue , and then asked me if i okay anot . then i say mei shi , then she smiled and walked away . Then others still point point and say things . but never even help . Then at that minute , i couldn't stand up . I dragged myself to the roadside , then rested there . then called my brother , and told him what happened , then called my cousin , and told him also . Then told him the whole bike can't use le . Ask him how . then he say leave it there , then i c ouldn't walk that time , left leg couldn't move , right leg still can move , so i just walk away , dragging my left foot . then walk to the taxi stand then took the cab back to my cousin house . but now my leg can move already . At that time i was like frigging afraid that i've broken my leg . but now better le . can move it already . But i'm seriously in pain right now }: But you aren't there for me.

Where were you when i needed you the most?
My knee , ankle , shin , elbow , palm was bleeding at that moment.
I smsed you , but you didn't reply .
What have i done again,
to deserve this ?

2008-10-27T19:54:00.001+08:00

周杰伦 - 说好的幸福呢

萧敬腾 - 原谅我

It's for you.

2008-10-27T19:15:00.003+08:00

J,
Please contact me as soon as you see this okay? Please. I've still got something i want to tell you . & on about that day , .. I'm just terribly sorry . The facts have never changed yet. Just contact me as soon as possible. Please. }:

Sympathize of a pathetic heart.

2008-10-18T22:57:00.010+08:00

ARE YOU:
Perfect: No.

Tall: 172 counted tall ?
In your pajamas: No.
Left handed: Left-handers are short-lifed ? But i'm a righty.

LAST
Friend you saw: Forgot.
Talked to on the phone: Forgot.
Person to text you: Joyce

FAVORITE:
Number: Don't have
Color: White
Food: Mee Hoon Kuay. (Papa introduced to me)
Place: West Coast Park watch sunset. (Prefered alone.)

QUESTIONS & ANSWERS:
Q: What was the first thing you did when you woke up?

-Await for her message?

Q: Do you have anything bothering you?

-Yah, it's not anything, it's everything.

Q: What's the last movie you watched in theatres?

- Forgotten

Q: Where's the last place you went?

- I'm at cousin's house now?

Q. Do you smile a lot?
- Real or fake smile ?

Q: Do you wish upon stars?
- Used to, Everynight.

Q: Are you a friendly person?
- Up to you to decide.

Q: Where did you sleep last night?
- My bed.

Q: Why did you sleep there?
- Because i should?

Q: When was the last time you cried?
- Afternoon.

Q: What was your last thought before going to bed?
- Is she still asleep ? What is she doing now ? Does she knows i misses her ?

Q: Rate life as of right now, one being bad, ten being great?
- (-10)

Q: What do you hear right now?
- GoGo Power Ranger Theme Song ._.

Q: Does anything hurt you right now?
- Yah, Terribly.

Q: What's your favorite month?
-March

EMOTIONS:
Are you missing someone right now ?
-Terribly. Miss her looks, chats and smile.

Are you single ?
-Yeah?

Are you tired ?
-Sick & tired partiallyof my life.

Are your parents still married ?
- Daddy has gone to a farfar island):

BASICS:
Real name? Oscar
Age? 15
Eye color? Black
Male or female? Male
Single? Yeah.
Crushing? It's not crush, it's loving?

Smart? No.
Hair colour?

Sweats or Jeans? Skinnies?
Phone or Camera? Phone With a camera ?
Health freak? No.
Righty or Lefty? Righty
SMOKE or Drink? It's better kept a secret.

FIRSTS:
First best friend? Brendon.
First award? National Vertical Marathon ?
First enemy? None.
First pet? Hamster. I was only 5.

First vacation? School vacation.

CURRENTLY:
Eating ? No

Drinking ? No
Listening to ? GoGo Power Ranger Theme Song.
Plans f0r tomorrow ? Music lessons ? But i don't wanna have tomorrow.
Waiting for? Everything that i wished for.

WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE GENDER:
Lips or eyes? Hugs.
Shorter or Taller? Shorter
Romantic or spontaneous? Both
Sensitive or loud? Depends.
Hook-up or in a relationship? In relationship.

HAVE YOU EVER:
Drank hard drinks? What's hard drinks?
Lost glasses/contacts? Used to wear spectacles. Never lost before.

Broken someone's heart? - Yeah, hers.
Been arrested? Never.

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
Do you like someone? Yeah?
Are you seriously happy? If i say i am, who'd believe?

Adapted from Dear's blog. Saw it , so did it also. I've been terribly down these few days . I don't know the cause of it . dont' ask me why . I'm sick of people always asking . They might have asked , but they aren't the person which i want them to be. What the hell is wrong with the whole world. Why is it that i always feel that everyone has turned down on me? & now even you, i really don't know what's wrong. Since so much have been gone , I'm leaving , i swear i am. But i'm not bringing anyone along. Just all alone. by myself . Who would stand by my situation ? The answer, noone. You've left, i'm all alone now . Friend are also gone. Let's stop pushing the blame to yourself already. If your friends asks , just push the blame to me. Even if it's things that i never do. Just push all the blame to me alright ? If anyone is to ask , just say ' He's a f.ker. He broke my heart, i shouldn't have fallen for him. He doesn't know how to love & care for me. He's not the type of guy i want. He's just everything that i don't want. & he's f.king sensitive.' Just memorize and say these to anyone. You're free from love. I don't know how i'm gonna continue walking down this dark, miserable,& cold lane of life. I guess i'll just have to do it alone? Because i know , you're never coming back ever again. I've broke your heart umpteen times. & you're sick and tired of this. You don't have to say out. Who wouldn't right ? You're free to love already. Trapped in this love, wouldn't bring you any happiness at all. I'm not used to not smsing you. I'll really be missing you from this moment onwards. But i can't sms you. I want you to get me out of your mind. i want you to forget me. & perhaps, this is the only way. I wouldn't contact you, but for every second, i'll be hoping that if my phone is to ring, it'd be from you. But it'll most probably be impossible. I guess, everything between the both of us have ended already ): I really want everything between the bot of us to be back , .. sighs, no use saying all these now . It have already ended. I'm sorry & iloveyou.

Love = Care + Concern + Worries + Faithfulness - Mistreat .Love = C²WFM¨¹

2008-10-13T12:43:00.006+08:00

Je t'aime, is only a simple word to say. &

Only you can hear me say,

'You kept my heart beating, for you. '

Can we be like how we used to be, when

Everything seemed so perfect & smooth.

& I'm missing the old you very terribly. What's happening to you ? I want the old you back . Can i ? The old you seemed so much more optimistic than now. I'm afraid that i'm the one who caused you to changed . If i really am the one whom caused this, i'll disappear from you. If that's what i can do to make you happier or troubles-free.

With love,Y

Baby, iloveyou<3

2008-10-11T21:49:00.009+08:00

Hello everyone .

I'm posting peoplees . Please give me a round of applause . Alrighty alrightyy. Shall stop crapping le lahs. I was at my cousin's house the whole day today. Some bad things happened lahs . & that got my mood terribly low. Held back everything. I was with family. Couldn't show any sign of sadness. So i acted as per normal. I was smsing with 'dear all the way. Something happened between her and one of my best friends. I'm sorry people, i got my reasons for doing all these. But at least, things are back to normal already. But there's still something else which isn't back. & it's you 'dear.

To 'Dear:

'Dear, i don't know what's wrong. You seemed so cold towards me. I know it's my fault for what has/have happened. You might not have said it. But i know what you're thinking about. I'm sorry that i've put you through so much. I don't know how am i suppose to repay you back. & 'Dear, thanks for helping me to talk things out with my brothers. I couldn't have passed this critical criteria without you. Thank you just so much alright? But i'm really not used to you being so cold towards me. I don't want this. I want the old you back. This is not the 'Dear that i used to know. You're not like this last time. I'm sorry. 'Dear, please come back to me please }: There's so much that i wanna tell you & still so much that we haven't done together yet. It's still not the time for the both of us to part yet. Alright ? I hope you'll know how i feel.

IloveyouBaby'J

To Jonathan:

Jonathan, I'm sorry. There's some reason why i've been avoiding you & the rest of the cliques. When i needed someone the most, i could say that. Noone was there. Even if you guys were, it wasn't the right time. I guess you must have lost trust in me already right ? I don't know how/what am i supposed to do to get the trust or anything else back. I just hope that you'll understand the situation i'm in right now alright ? Sorry to have hurt you so much. I'm terrribly sorry.

To Junming:

Junming, sorry that you got into this also. Thanks for talking me out also. I couldn't have done it without you guys. I've already told you why i've been avoiding you and the whole clique right ? I hope you won't take anything to heart alright ? I'm terribly sorry .

To Yuinping:

Yuinping, sorry for my coldness to you for the pass few weeks. I've been going through alot. & there's so much that i wanna find someone to talk to. Sorry for tolerating all my nonsense and emotional times. You know they come and go right ? They happy , they come. Then it'sll spoil my mood. I can never predict when these emotional thoughts will come right ? It'll come and go as they like.

To Rest of the Clique:

Hey everyone , sorry that i haven't been meeting anyone of you lately . i've been having too much stuffs. Find one day, we'll meet out alright ? I still love you guys alotalot alright ? Takecare & goodluck for you guys de results okay ? Takecare guys.

Baby'J, We belonged together.

2008-10-10T22:28:00.004+08:00

Today was last paper, dnt. It was alright lahs. Not too bad. But i'm afriad i might retain. I really wishes to talk to my family about this. But i don't know how, where and what to start. Sometimes i just get so damn sick & tired of life. i really don't know what i can do or should do. I'll end my post here. Takecare everyone.

Baby'J,

Thanks for being there for me everytime i'm down. I don't know how to repay you back man. I'm sorry for all that i've done last time alright? Don't take it to heart alright ? & You also uhs. Don't keep thinking about the past. It's a ne start for the both of us. We're gonna start or life afresh. Isn't that such a great idea? {: You must cheerup also too alrightyys? You also know that i'll always be there for you too right ? {: I'ts been a reallyy great time chatting with you today. Remember to come to me when you need someone to talk to alrightyys ? Takecare Lil'Fatty. <3

I'm sorry.

2008-09-20T21:52:00.006+08:00

Happy Birthday To My Brother Edmund ! {:

17 already leys , must grow up le! :x Okayokay , i wish you all the best for your birthday , & may your wishes come trueee . Good luck for your O'level this year !

Today whole day was at cousin's house at fajar. I was waiting the entire day for my phone to ring or vibrate . But to no avail , I didn't ring. Even if it did , it wasn't from the person which i wanted or whatsoever . I'm tired , i don't wanna type le . Goodnight guys .

I don't wanna talk about you ,

it'll only cause more emotions to my current mood right now.

I really hate you for everything you've done .

Sometimes i really wishes to end it right away ,

but i don't know what you'll do after that .

Seriously , i hate you for the things you tried to do or done }:

Nobody Listens .

2008-08-24T00:36:00.003+08:00

Noone listens to me when i speak,

But they expect me to listen ,

when they speak?

I'm back blogging again, & i'm hating it a little. It was exams last few weeks. Let's not talk about it yeah ? Nobody listens, & i agree with that . It's not that i love talking to myself . But it's just that sometimes when i talk , no one replies or answers. & i don't really like that feeling . That's why i've develop-ed this feeling of talking alone , or perhaps people might think , i'm crazy or autism. I don't need check-ups , counselling or whatever. I'm fine , & i'm very happy with it . I seriously need none of those , i really don't }:

Happy National Day Peeps ! {:

2008-08-09T21:47:00.003+08:00

Happy National Day Peepos ! {:

It's not really surprising though. But i'm just bored. Today's national day. Was suppose-d to go out with clique & watch fireworks. But didn't make it, cause' i gotta go to my uncle's house. Damn boring canszxzx ?! I wish-ed there was somebody to suddenly sms me & accompany me. Anyone out there who's free & willing to spend a few hours sms-ing me ?! i'll love the person even more ! :x I mean it ! :x Haha, I'm just so damn boreddddzxzx. It's National Day leys , yet i'm staying at my uncle's house facing this darn-ed com. I think i'm gonna get my drumset soon ! {: Super exciteddd ! {: But too bad it's second-hand de lahhs. But it's okay lahhs , got drumset better than none right ? {: & i wish-ed my drumset was electronic de {: i don't want real de, real de super-duper loud bodohh ! :x Aiyahh , whatever the case , i'm glad & contented that maybe i'm getting my drumset ! :x haha . But tomorrow i'm having my music lessons . from 12:40am - 1:20pm. Haha. Super excitedd . Haven't really practice-ed. Gotta practice last minute tomorrow in the morning. haha. Aiyahhs , i lazy to post le . Fingers are freeezing & i'm having a bad flu. Everyone reading my blog de takecare alot alot okays ?! {: Cheers !

So now what's wrong ?

I already told you i didn't wanna meet,

because my hair is really un-acceptable.

I care alot for my looks , don't you get it ?

i already say i'm not feel well,

my mood's very bad .

yet you still use-d words to spite me .

What the hell must i do to make you content ?

Tell me.

To Clique,

Sorry guys ,

last minute told you i can't make it.

I myself wanted to see the fireworks too.

But i can't be excused from my family you see ?

& sorry about these few days .

I don't know what's affecting me nowadays.

Sorry to have made you all get all worried all over me.

i don't want that too.

I'm really afraid that what you all said is true .

I don't want that.

I'm sorry guys.

Hyperactive, Depression, Split-Personality.

2008-08-03T15:13:00.008+08:00

Hyperactive Is A Symptom Of The Deadly, Depression

This is what Yuinping & Junming told me. This can't be a coincidence. Everything around me is feeling just so weird. Sometimes i just wished i .. But i don't have the f.courage. I really don't know what i'm doing. I wanna stop time and think again. I want someone to be there for me when i'm down. Someone who will show me how it feels like to be love-d. So much things happen-ed. So many times it came, & it went off just peacefully. It didn't hurt, it didn't harm. It just came & goes as it pleases.

Schooling and outing with clique. But i can't really remember everything but only remember a little bit. I'll just write everything down in point forms. Sorry

Friday
Cross-Country.
.8km run.
Finished in it 15mins10secs
Got 2nd for whole sec3
Approx 400 sec3 people.
Rank-ed top 6 or 8 for whole upper sec.
Didn't dare to take my trophy up stage.
So i hid & waited till my turn is over.
After that met Junming at lot.
Went home change-d and went kbox with Junming And Jon.
Kbox from 8 till 12.
Got hyped up & had lotsa fun.
Saturday
Went for Jason's Birthday chalet.
Meetup with Lingsheng Cousin.
Went to find Kxg.
After that left with cousin to Jason's chalet.
Reach-ed & took bus to the chalet.
Skip,skip,skip.
Cut cake, went to Red House.
Something happen-ed.
Went back to chalet & crap-ed for a while.
Got a new friendY
Then mum call-ed, so i ask-ed her if i was able to stay at cousin's house.
She agree-d, so left with Cousin.
Share Money to Cab to lot.
Was sms-ing my new friendY
Cousin's Brother came to fetch Us.
Then Alighted them at BukitPanjangPlaza.
Went to Cousin's house.
Use the comp for a while & then went to sleep.
Woke up & blog-ed .
Going home soon.

That's all i guess, that's all that i could remember. I'm a lil' tired. Later still have to take LRT then change to MRT home. sighs, super boring.

I'm Strong,I know I really am.

2008-07-13T00:12:00.003+08:00

Hello Peeps !

Super long time never update le lah. Sorry lah ! :x Firstly i wanna apologise to peeps for not updating :x Cause my house de computer brokedown. Then i also lazy to go to other peeps house update ! :x This past few months , too much happened . i don't feel like noting it down . Let bygones be bygones. Like what Yp said, Leave everything behind and wave byebye. Bad things bu yao remember zui hao le .

I'll just write in note what happened lah ,

Cultural Night yesterday.
Something happened to me and him.
I almost brokedown, but managed to cover up.
Stayed at home the whole day today/
♥ Things Between Me And Junming Patched Up{:
Chatted with him & talked about ourselves a lil.
& Now I'm Happy Like Crazyy ! :x
& Now I wishes to Pee ! :x
& i lazy to update le .

& guys please note, i won't be online-ing or posting unless otherwise {: Cause like what i said , my computer crashed . Anything jiu leave comment on my friendster {: Thanks le uh {:

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Okayy , Cheers {:

2008-04-27T21:39:00.004+08:00

HELLOS ! I'M venie . i love Oscar! Do you like Oscar too ?
hahahahah!
here to help that birdy update :D
he'd been coughing so badly these few days .
hope he get well soon :[

2008-04-06T15:40:00.002+08:00

Hello to all the arseholes out there that asked me to update .
i can't update as frequent le lah
anything just sms me.
this few days i'm like frigging moodless.
don't ask why .
i don't know why either .
talking about this makes my mood go low .
i don't wish to post anymore le .
goodbye .

i'm sorry .

but i guess this is what i wanted .

i don't want you to get hurt you know ?

that's the only way i can do to stop everything .

i'm sorry , but i'm trying my best to forget you .

you should too . being with me wouldn't make you any happier .

i've failed as a boyfriend . & i don't wish to make the same mistake again .

i'm losing this love soon . you should too .